Rain

~Rain~ by Phong

"Heaven outpouring down
every droplets of tears
Promise thousands of blossoms"


Tonight at work I heard the sound of something strange, something familiar till I realized that it was rain. The sound of rain being projected by a powerful wind against the roof of the building. As I pay close attention to the outside, I began to hear the wind howl and the tree grow. Its as if the gods had felt my unease heart pain and share their sympathy. Its 1am and I am leaving work, as I get on the freeway during the storm driving cautiously at 50mph I began to notice there is only me on the freeway, there was so much rain that my windshield wiper could not keep up at max speed. Then I notice a yellow blinking lights in the middle of the freeway. I got concern so I decrease the speed to be safe. Just as I close enough I stepped on the Break very hard. Just barely enough cuz there was a car flipped over right in the middle of the freeway, while 2 other cars crashed on both side, left and right. Just up a head theres 2 car stopped that try to help the people who's at the incident. So I put down my phone and decided not to dial 911 since there is 2 car already helped. I began to drive home extra cautiously at 30-40mph.

Other than that today I began to do things that made me feels good about myself.
Clean the house, then clean my room.
Exercise, work hard till 1am
Read 5 chapters of the book 48 laws of Power
enjoy reading poetry during break at work.
And visit Hu'n because I know she was feeling heartbreak and lonely
I was too busy focus on building our future that left her alone feeling unappreciated and unlove. Its must have been why I've feels lonely and hurt as well. I just hope that she forgive me because I don't want to lose a best friend, a good cook, a lover or my soul mate.

dear journal, I hope to write everyday because sometime if we don't write we tend to think all the years had gone by was boring and filled with emptiness. But by writing each day, I think I can capture a spec of happiness during those lonely days.