Richard Cory

Whenever Richard Cory went down town,
We people on the pavement looked at him:
He was a gentleman from sole to crown,
Clean favored, and imperially slim.

And he was always quietly arrayed,
And he was always human when he talked;
But still he fluttered pulses when he said,
"Good-morning," and he glittered when he walked.

And he was rich—yes, richer than a king—
And admirably schooled in every grace:
In fine, we thought that he was everything
To make us wish that we were in his place.

So on we worked, and waited for the light,
And went without the meat, and cursed the bread;
And Richard Cory, one calm summer night,
Went home and put a bullet through his head.

on Saturday night oct 15-05
the party that I planned so long.. was a huge success :)
me and my sisters went out and party till morning ^_^
and wow, she dance really really good. I learned a few things or two
but most importantly I wanted to show her the ppl that I trust and loves. So they get to know each other.

the part that I missed the most is when we were exhausted from the dance floor.. we hit the couch and just chill there for a while. That was sweet.
haha.. I still remember myself on the gogo dancer stage doing ParaPara dance lolz... I hope she didn't say that I looks good up there just to comfort me ^^

That was one sweet night.

A lesson in self respect.

Recently I was enlighted by the fact that in order for you to earn respect from others, YOU must respect yourself. Meaning they will see how much you worth if u see u worth that much.
For example
I used to be very available and helps everyone out of my own interest, and ppl sometime take advantage of it, as if im their tool for use. But when I start not being so available, other ppl began to realized how much of a...asset I am. Its teach others not to take things for granted.

I mean.. if you see yourself as a product, and you want to sell it for 500$ u pretty sure and have to believe that you are worth that much to convince anyone to buy it.
Its relates with the law of supply and demand as well.. the less available you are, the more u'r worth.

it doesn't mean im a jerk.. or becoming a jerk. I just dont want to be abuse.. because I AM nice.
I mean I am still nice.. just that I got burn a few times already.

Recently I learned from my friend who.. OMG he is simply the guy that any girl would dream of. I mean he did everything, time, patient effort, money, trust, love...etc he offer her all
but by doing so well and much.. that he lost his self respect.. cuz he's always be there...provide it all without much asking in return. and she left him.
so.. now I am becoming selfish. But I believe that If you are truely my friend, wouldn't you want me to be better and happier?

anywayz..that was my thoughts tonight about self respect.
You want to be respected? better damn start respect yourself better!

I think i've found my limit. and I dont think I'll ever push to that limit again unless I really have to. cuz it felt really horrible.
my b/day coming up on oct/10 had many plan but my job prevent me from throwing a party.

wanted - a w800i cellphone

ahhh I still got a mountain of paper work to do.. The court, College application, FAFSA, and resume + portfolio.