haha I just did this with my cell phone. freakin cool man.

Insomnia



I remember having such a bad insomnia that I couldn't sleep for days.
Unknowing the day or time, just simply drifting by.
I was alone, no visitors... time seem to stand still or doesn't exist at all. There was a feeling of joy that I didn't have to worry about anything, except for the vital things.
In this state of mind I was able to have so much time thinking about my past, future and present. I was enlighten... as if a higher spirit visit me and showing me the possible outcome of my future due to my past.. like the "ghost before chrismas"

Now thinking of those insomnia days.. the nostalgic feelings of yesterday. How sometime I really wanted some time of mine own to simply escape and forget that time exist, so that everything else just fade away as I drift endlessly piece together everything that been stacking up to now. To be able to analyze deeply all the important symbols and keys. But my current schedule simply very busy.
School, work and fitness workout completely drain all my time and energy.

Luckily I still have some time bloggin and writing this up, its show that I do sometime think about my present.. but not as deeply as before.

My monkey.
It hang loose on my car mirror.
Whenever I look at it I remembered it lay there on the parking lot, where I found it. At the same time I remembered her beautiful face and expression at the time. The wonderful memories of yesterday.
Now I wonder how she is doing, and if she ever think of me like I do now.





Beautiful sky today isn't it?
by chance are you outside looking up also?
In my mind trying to puzzle the cloud together to create an expression of you. Of your smiles that you left inprinted in my mind.
although our love faded, but whenever I look up into the sky. I remembered that time when were both look at it together and promise that next time we see a beautiful sky like this, we would think of each other. Are you thinking of me now? as I do you...




Me eating 10 pound of crawfish in Los Angeles
Next to me is my bro...

















Its look like a mountain of delicious crawfish.
yummmmm make my mouth watered thinking of that meal.















What's the point to go to vegas if you dont gamble.
although I didn't win or lose. But I do had tons of fun.

goin vegas this weekend.

Its interesting how fairy stories or movies emphasise on just one character. For example to day I saw a romantic movie and I think the director purposely pick the leading role or main character of the movie to be the best looking gal of em all. For example.. In spiderman movie, Mary Jane appearently to be the only girl who looks amazing and as if she is the only girl for peter parker. Funny thing about life, it isn't all that black and white. Take my life for example, I dont have just ONE girl who looks all pretty + great personality, buts a whole tons. Unlike movies.. in real life there is no director, or no emphasis on just one main character. So... Never ever I try to base my life with a movie because.. there is too much diff.

to make it all short. GIRL GIRL GIRL.. too many girl
get out of my head!
All the movies stereo type, what to do, how to act and feels.. GET OUT OF MY HEAD!

I want thing to just be natural. the way it should be. I want to be enlighten, instead of apply what i've seen in movies into real life. I want to find my own path. Not imitate others. I want something to call my own. Doesn't matter if its just a piece of shit. At least its mine, and only one in the entire world. Who to judge how valuable it is, after all its all relatives.

....feeling content.

damn.. my arm in pain. but I like it very much.
Been working out with my homie and im start to seein results fast
anywayz
goin Vegas this 3day weekend

Interesting fact

2/3 of the internet sites are about BLOG!!!
haha so im not alone then.



A song that stuck in my head all day

Artist: Cascada
Title: Bad Boy

Remember the feelings, remember the day
My stone heart was breaking
My love ran away
This moments i knew i would be someone else
My love turned around and i felt

Be my bad boy, be my man
Be my week-end lover
But don't be my friend
You can be my bad boy
But understand

That i don't need you in my life again

Won't you be my bad boy, be my man
Be my week-end lover
But don't be my friend
You can be my bad boy
But understand

That i don't need you again
No i don't need you again

You went made this promess
To stay by my side
But after some time you just pushed me a sign
You never thought that a girl could be strong
Now i show you how to go on

Be my bad boy, be my man
Be my week-end lover
But don't be my friend
You can be my bad boy
But understand

That i don't need you in my life again

Won't you be my bad boy, be my man
Be my week-end lover
But don't be my friend
You can be my bad boy
But understand

That i don't need you again
No i don't need you again