Exerp from "Meet Joe Black"

Love is passion, obsession, someone you can't live without. If you don't start with that, what are you going to end up with? Fall head over heels. I say find someone you can love like crazy and who'll love you the same way back. And how do you find him? Forget your head and listen to your heart. I'm not hearing any heart. Run the risk, if you get hurt, you'll come back. Because, the truth is there is no sense living your life without this. To make the journey and not fall deeply in love - well, you haven't lived a life at all. You have to try. Because if you haven't tried, you haven't lived.

-Bill


Joe Black: I don't care Bill. I love her.
William Parrish: How perfect for you - to take whatever you want because it pleases you. That's not love.
Joe Black: Then what is it?
William Parrish: Some aimless infatuation which, for the moment, you feel like indulging - it's missing everything that matters.
Joe Black: Which is what?
William Parrish: Trust, responsibility, taking the weight for your choices and feelings, and spending the rest of your life living up to them. And above all, not hurting the object of your love.
Joe Black: So that's what love is according to William Parrish?
William Parrish: Multiply it by infinity, and take it to the depth of forever, and you will still have barely a glimpse of what I'm talking about.

Broken pieces

Burning Tree - Represent all the nurturing & caring have gone up in flame. There will be no more fruit of the future to look forward to.

The man - Holding broken pieces of his face and his heart, while showed complete empty on the inside.

The woman - Turned away, in a expression of sad & discomfort.


After looking at this piece of work for 15 minutes I still cannot capture all the emotions that I can relate with.. wow.

Top 5 things about me

The Bad

#1 Not follow through.
#2 Bashful
#3 Scatter mind
#4 Bad remembering names
#5 Disorganize

and The Good
#1 Honest
#2 Positive attitude
#3 Creative
#4 Don't prejudge
#5 Makes others feels good about themselves

Pain

“Pain is temporary. It may last a minute, or an hour, or a day, or a year, but eventually it will subside and something else will take its place. If I quit, however, it lasts forever.” – Lance Armstrong.

Thanks Lance, u'r words inspired me.

Dear Phan

I truly love you,
I should never enter your life, never bother you, cannot let you stupefied by love thus bewilder, let you exercise free will, and fulfill your wishes. Let you be free forever, and achieve your dream free from care. Let you guided by the light of truth and accomplish your own goals.
If I really love you,
I have to let go.

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I've promised to stop loving you, but I haven't made that promise to myself. We were clearly in love, yet had to accept separation. Being apart, I am left with only the right to miss you. Although, we agreed to not look back, yet I keep remembering you. It's my heart that has yet to agree to let you go.

I am really sorry, Though I've promise you...to not love you anymore...

Bless or omen?

This freedom of information world where social life and personal information is available to view by anyone. In this case, the person who I love is no longer want to be with me. My love and caring for her still remained. Is it wrong to look at her social life? I know it bothering to her that I would check up on her to see how's she's doing. Where does the line draw between caring for someone and invading their personal space? I don't make judgement on see'n her happy enjoying the moments. I actually feels glad that she's happy. Though it does bothering me to see other guys chasing her. This jealousy is what made me human. And its hurt me greatly to know that I love her so much and she would not return her love. Silly me, silly love, like a child, I am so selfish.

All my happiness moment, all my sadness, how I am doing, I still shares with her. Always welcome with open arm. Yet she remained close, not sharing a thing with me. Is it because she had drawn a line so that she cannot hurt me anymore by caring for me? Is this her way of telling me she still love me? She know that she had hurt me a lot, and don't want to hurt me any more by not expressing her joy and sorrow? Yet I wish she do so....

This thing, this love...I can no longer say its good or bad. All I known is that I still want to be a part of her life. This gives me hope, and a chance of believing that if I waited out long enough, always be there, always supporting her in whatever choice, some day she'll feels for what I've done and maybe see that I am the diamond that she's looking for always with her. While she collecting rocks, one that she does not have.

Sometime I wonder if in previous life she had love me like the way I do, and this is my repent for all that she had done for me in my past life. What ever it is, its beyond my control. I do my best to be as comfortable as possible whenever I am near her. But my heart keep beating so fast, screaming out for her that she felt unease.

Why do I keep pushing her away with my love? Is it because of my "want" is it too much for a boy to ask a girl to love him?
I know i've messed up so many chances she had given me, yet I kept ask for more and more and still I could not make it perfect. Each time doing so I hurt us more. She given me hope, that I can be a better person, a more loving person. She given me strength co conquer all pain. This pain I must learn to be happy with, because there will be more and more. I don't want to collapse now and give up, because each time I do so, my heart bleed and get stronger. Someday I want to shows her my true strong heart that could never get hurt. Its will be filled with trust for all the time she cause doubt and I still bear through it. Hope for all the time when all lights goes out. Faithfulness for all the time she been with other people. And understanding, for many times she made me confused in our relationship.

With each cuts and bruise, I will heal. Devoted my life to worship a goddess that forever hold my heart. Let everything I do be forgiving in the final day where I am being judge. For they are done out of love.

Right now things may appear beyond repair, beyond words can reach her. However, I believe in the goodness of every bad thing. So I am thanksful for this insecure, lonely, bitterness, and heartache. Let my clouds of doubt and fear be vanish. I pray each day so that my thoughts and feelings reach her heart. I wish she be the person that's happy with herself. Chasing her dream, and have many friends supporting her.

All in all, just thinks of me when u feel sadness or happiness, for my thoughts always wish to be near you.