Insomnia



I remember having such a bad insomnia that I couldn't sleep for days.
Unknowing the day or time, just simply drifting by.
I was alone, no visitors... time seem to stand still or doesn't exist at all. There was a feeling of joy that I didn't have to worry about anything, except for the vital things.
In this state of mind I was able to have so much time thinking about my past, future and present. I was enlighten... as if a higher spirit visit me and showing me the possible outcome of my future due to my past.. like the "ghost before chrismas"

Now thinking of those insomnia days.. the nostalgic feelings of yesterday. How sometime I really wanted some time of mine own to simply escape and forget that time exist, so that everything else just fade away as I drift endlessly piece together everything that been stacking up to now. To be able to analyze deeply all the important symbols and keys. But my current schedule simply very busy.
School, work and fitness workout completely drain all my time and energy.

Luckily I still have some time bloggin and writing this up, its show that I do sometime think about my present.. but not as deeply as before.